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Going to church and being the church are two different things.
Faith is a funny thing. We don’t know where we are going or where life will take us but, we still believe in the unknown and unseen. We believe because we know Gods got our back. Last year around this time summer I got a really crappy retail job. I got it so that I could save a bit of money for a new laptop, camera gear and new music equipment so that I could start making music and documenting my life through photo and video. I had decided i’d quit once I had enough money but, man did God have a whole different plan. I started out not even making enough money to save. My mom got sick and that month my brother who was 11 then got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. My older brother had to go back to school because he was on scholarship for football and my moms job got really slow. There I was fresh out of high school now an adult. I was going to work and school full time I had to take care of all the responsibilities by myself while my mom was sick and out of work. Paying all the bills and taking care of my diabetic brother and other siblings. Often I would cry myself to sleep. I couldn’t understand why this was happening. Why was God always punishing me. I’ve done nothing to deserve it I thought. That I was completely right about. The doing nothing part, I did do nothing. Nothing to please the lord and I did nothing to deserve his love. Everything I planed for myself was to benefit me not Gods people or his name I was selfish. I started to change my way of thinking of why is God punishing me? To what is God trying to teach me? In the last month I got 2 promotions and 2 pay raises. Starting next week I begin my manager training All this in 12 months at the Age of 21. Crazy to think where I was last year to how far I’ve come. I still don’t have a new laptop or camera but I’ve learn to accept that things don’t always go according to our plans but always go according to God and that’s fine. Everything falls into place. I just want to say never give up on a dream. I’ve had to deal with mean co-workers and bosses, racism, hate, and have really just been heart broken from this one job. I stuck around because I felt like that’s where God wanted me to be. Have faith in him for he always knows what he’s doing.